Oma Hamou: In Her Own Words

Source: Excerpts from AA Legends April 21, 2006

"....I am much like most any other hard working, conscientious individual eager to get ahead in life and to make a respectable living. However, one thing clearly sets me apart from the rest of the crowd. I have endured, and am enduring, being the victim of a hate crime, of being stalked, and have endured extreme invasions of my privacy. Through out the course of uncovering Bob Atchison and those associated with his company, Pallasart’s trail, and waiting for justice, my world has become a living nightmare. I honestly believe that the victimization will never end, that I will never become whole again. I personally am so extremely affected and distracted through out this ordeal that I suffer at times from a nearly non-existent appetite, very little sleep, depression, mood swings and I have suffered a number of close calls medically because of the stress. My daily life, far from being productive and fulfilling, is consumed with the ferocious chore of restoring my name and attempting to quell any future abuse by Bob Atchison and his company, Pallasart and its associates. I’ve lost identification with the person I really am inside and shut myself out of social functions because of the negativity this has caused on my life. Unless you have endured being stalked and persecuted, with what has felt to me to be a religious cult like zeal, you will have no comprehension of the devastation that being stalked and hated can create in your life, even to the fears that you face in just waking up. No words will ever be strong enough to completely convince others what this period in my life since my discovery of what Bob Atchison, Rob Moshein and those associated with Pallasart have been doing to me is like, every day filled with; terror, aggravation, unceasing anger and frustration. I awake every morning to emotionally charged livid angst. I strike out unreasonably at those who I love. I unceasingly am forced to live through a clouded reality, one seriously altered by the horrendous actions of one man, Bob Atchison who committed or influenced a series of unforgivable acts against me, even using my church and faith as a weapon against me. At times I've become someone I hated, because of the emotions and associated words that were forced out of me. The existence of Bob Atchison's attentions has robbed me of the normal life I have strived for and entirely deserve. My life should be one in which I, and I alone, should be held responsible and accountable for its failures and triumphs. For me, the most personally frightening moment was dealing with the fact that Bob Atchison hated me so much that he would plot and concoct a murder for hire scheme. A scheme in which I could’ve been arrested and prosecuted for a crime I never committed or took part in. It is frightening to know that someone hates me so much that they would go to such extremes. Although I am living what may on the surface seem to be a normal life with normal freedoms, this is far from the truth. I have never deserved less than a normal life, one free of the ill effects of a heinous individual who deliberately and unabashedly used and abused my world ... I ...never deserved to be haunted, stalked shadowed and harassed. I have lived and breathed the nightmare of a hate crime I have learned what it is to be in the crosshairs of a cult. I will tell you first hand this is devastation beyond any outsider’s comprehension, a nearly unbearable burden that no one should ever have to suffer..."